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Floating in the Ether

For maybe the last three weeks, I feel like I have been living outside of my body. I just don’t have any motivation to do anything. It feels like the days are just flying through the calendar, and I’m just kind of caught in a daze. Hell, I’ve been putting off writing this for weeks.

I think it’s because of two things. First, I’ve been waiting to hear about a schedule change at work for almost two months now, one that would really put me on a more normal schedule with the rest of the world, and let me see my friends a lot more than I do now. Second, me and Erin are going on a weeklong trip to Ocean City in a few weeks, and I think my brain is just trying to run out the clock. I haven’t been on vacation in over two years, and I can’t stop thinking about it.

I feel like since my brain is preoccupied with these two things, I kind of have been not paying attention to anything else in my life: I haven’t talked to some of my pals in a real long time, haven’t done much of anything, really. When people ask me how my weekend was, I literally have to struggle to think of something I did, other than food shopping and staring at the computer screen.

It kind of sucks; I feel like I’m missing out on the end of the summer. But I don’t know how to shake myself out of this funk.

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From Here to Eternity - James Jones

I Am the Cure for Olympic Fever

I have to admit I don’t think I could be less interested in the Olympics this year. Not that I’ve ever goten into the Olympics so much (the only one I can remember having interest in was the one with Michael Johnson in ‘96), but this year it seems to have completely passed me by, while it seems everyone else I know is just completely into it.

It also seems to be mostly people who are not usually into sports; in addition to many of the reporters at work telling me they have been staying up late watching the Games, Erin has fallen alseep the past 4 nights watching the women’s gymnastic team suck.

I guess I just don’t havce much interest in them since most of the games and athletes I am not familiar with. Remember back in the day how awesome the Team USA Basketball team was? “The Dream Team” was known by everyone, and people were so into it. I mean, look at that fucking lineup! Maybe it’s just because I’m not closely following it, but there isn’t anything like that in this Olympics. Sure, Phelps has been getting a crazy amount of press, but other than that, I don’t really know if anything else exciting is going on, and I feel like I pay attention to a broad spectrum of current events.

The only thing I HAVE been caring about is the US winning the most medals. Not the most gold, mind you, the most medals. I feel that the most total medals is more impressive, as it means that although we might not be the best at everything, we are in the top 3 in a wider swathe of events. As of the last count I saw, we were behind China by one medal. I just don’t like the fact that China has like made it their mission to win the games, and is trying so hard. That kind of thing flares up my patriotism, and makes me want the US to dominate, just to put them in their place.

Am I the only one not in the Olympic spirit?

(PS - After seeing this gallery of some of the German athletes in Playboy, I am going to rethink my position on not being interested in the Games.)